Typing Vibes

"Who's a Gentlemen?"   Parth, a 6 years old boy asked his father. "You! my boy" he replied with a laugh. "No dad, tell me na, I wanna be a gentleman but don't know how to be one" said the boy.   The father replied with curiosity, "who told you about gentleman?" "My teacher" the boy answered followed by the words "my teacher said, a real gentleman is the one with integrity"  "Well, your teacher is right. Integrity is all about being honest to all your relationships and being a same person publicly and privately but your are not mature enough to understand all of this at this age but you'll be a true gentleman I'm sure" the father said.  "Are you a gentleman?" The boy asked his father.  He tried hiding his hesitation, tried to sound firm. "Of course, I'm" the father replied avoiding eye contact.  The little boy thought, he had found what he was looking for, "A Gentleman...

It was a day of july, heavy rain was expected, the sky was covered with black clouds & it was no longer a sunny day.  The shops were closing, the hawkers were wrapping their stuff, people were returning to their homes & I was headed to meet you. Unaware of my destiny I left home with a bag, water bottle, umbrella & a scarf.  After standing for 15 minutes on bus stops in heavy rain & irresistible wind I realized that I had expected too much from the bus service. But I couldn't go back to home without submitting my form for the admission.  Being a procrastinator, it wasn't new for me to rush at the very last moment but this time I actually thought I won't be able to make it.  I finally got on the bus & reached to the stop you told me and you called me at the very right moment saying; "Where are you? Would you be able to reach on time? Okay just follow the directions"  Running towards the building, all with my wet clothes and wet shoes I almost ...

Woke up on time still I was running late Almost skipped the breakfast but couldn't skip my coffee! Rushed to the kitchen, made a cup of coffee "Too hot to drink right away" I thought. So I moved to drawing area, to polish my shoes, then to my room to tie my hair. Now I just wanted to have my coffee. I went back to grab it but wait, "did I pack my lunch and what about tank, is it full?" I again left it unattainded! The coffee waited, when it wasn't ready,  when it was ready and when it lost its essence. It just waited. The moment I hold the coffee mug I knew,  I made it wait for too long.  Disappointments don't turn into new hopes everyday. So better we should not let ourselves wait for what matters. You can't put anything first and value that the least and then regret. Right time isn't about the perfect timing. Perfect timing occurs when things are done timely.

The Ray of Love I know it’s not morning yet  and it’s been so long I have seen any light the shining stars gave up on comforting me  the moon is keep fading away  the ruling wind is no more resistible but the dark, it remains the same. I’m glad, you keep walking with me and you make me feel the way I never been  I don’t know what I have done to be worthy of this But your love keeps me going with so much ease  you treasure the tears I shaded off  and wear them like they are full of sheen Not sure if you are a firefly resting on my shoulder  or looking at me with eyes full of gleam  but except you, nothing is any more precious to me  without you, even in the light nothing can be seen. 

याद भी बाक़ी नहीं उस किरदार की जो बचपन में निभाया था बेबाक़ कुछ भी कह जाती थी  बेखौफ़ कुछ भी कर जाती थी  फिर सलीका सिखाने को  घरवालों ने बेड़ा उठाया "लड़कियां ऐसे नहीं बोलतीं" "वैसे नहीं बैठती" "यहाँ नहीं जाती" "रात बाहर नहीं रहती" सीख लिए सब तौर तरीके  और खो दिया वो किरदार  जिसकी अब याद भी बाकी नहीं!

ज़िन्दगी के मायने अलग है  पर है तो ज़िन्दगी ही.. तेरी भी मेरी भी हर सुबह सवेरा नहीं होता मेरा  पर रात तो होती है.. तेरी भी मेरी भी  गुमनाम सही, पर आवारगी पालते है  ख्वाहिशें कुछ तो रह जाती हैं.. तेरी भी मेरी भी  मुख़्तसर सी मोहलत नहीं मिलती महलों में  न मुसाफिर यहाँ थम पाता है  उम्र जी लेते हैं उम्र भर  ज़िन्दगी रह जाती है.. तेरी भी मेरी भी!

It wasn’t the perfect friendship. It went through all the ups & downs. But it was old like an old photograph of childhood, it may be blurred, dirty & even ugly but it’s precious & when it’s lost it’s always painful.  We have been friends from the third grade. We never even allowed anyone else sit beside us in school. From the gossip of school to the heartbreaks, from the craziest fantasy to the deepest insecurity, every blunder we made with tiniest detail, we had shared everything. We were a rare bond of two people who could actually understand each other with no judgments. We had lived almost two decades with each other. We had witnessed each other’s hard work & experienced the journey of two silly girls turning into the women with ambitions. We often had something to complain about each-other just like normal human beings, but it never been enough to give up on our friendship. Years passed and our bond became precious to us. We both got so occupied with the ch...

Who would I be if I change myself Like everyone else there's something within me that I too wanna get rid of but who would I be if not this pain, if not this insane. Would it be easier to bear it then if I bury my fragile heart in the cold sand How would it make sense  to leave my calling unanswered behind If I really let all my fears go, if I really win all my doubts over what can guarantee that there'll not be something new If I would change myself thoroughly, would it be really me  & if not, then who would I be.

'I would never buy it myself  or even wouldn't notice It was a typical colourful band  with many tiny ghungaroos .' That's what I thought when I first saw that bracelet.  I was late but finally had reached before they had left for the engagement of my cousin. There was a pooja going on & everyone was in ethnic attires except me. People looked at me like I was an uninvited outsider but that was okay until she was accompanying me.    The pooja was over & I too got a bracelet to tie like every unmarried girl there & before I could say 'can I keep it in my bag' my cousin said 'let me help you to tie it' & I said 'thanks'    At that time it was the only traditional thing I was wearing & I was certain I'll take it off very soon.  I never been too girlish, though I thought the bracelet wasn't suitable for me & was making so much noise.    Day passed & I got used to the bracelet. The sound it makes every time I move m...